Grab your coat, and get your hat!

I had a post almost completely done that I started writing yesterday.

Apparently, I don't know how to save things to my draft folder!

That's irrelevant, though. It went something like this:

So, I realize that I'm pregnant. But I still don't think I've really come to grips with the fact that I'm going to have a baby!

Most of the time, I feel like in a couple months everything is going to go back to normal, and I can carry on with life as planned. The fact that life is never going to be the same for me is both exciting and completely terrifying.

The reason I'm saying this now is because everything is just now starting to become a reality. Each day, I'm more and more aware of this huge change that's coming, and it's all because of baby showers and gifts. I'll open something and a tiny part of me thinks, "Oh, this is fun! But when am I ever going to use this?"

Oh right. In less than two months. Of course!

I still plan on accomplishing everything I wanted to do before all of this. I still want to go to grad school, and I still plan on having a career. But now there will just be a few adjustments: no longer planning on going back to Lubbock for grad school (which is actually probably a good thing, I already talk about that place enough), and now I just have to realize that my "fabulous" (thus far non-existent) career will be taking a back seat to Baby.

I feel like this is all a bunch of worrying and complaining. I really am excited. I just feel like I'd be lying if I didn't express that this is the most overwhelmed and anxious I've ever been about anything.

And I'm an incredibly anxious person.

Thankfully, as I've said before, my parents and sister (my entire family, really, and all of my friends) are all so amazing and supportive. I can't imagine the train wreck I'd be without them!

In other, more lighthearted news, Baby was moving so much this evening, all I could do was laugh. It didn't hurt-I'm still waiting for those really painful jabs. But it was just the craziest feeling! She's getting pretty big now, so it's not the same kicking motions I was feeling before. Now, she makes these big sweeping movements that go all the way across my belly or all down one side, and I can only assume she's just repositioning and trying to get comfortable. Already a restless sleeper, just like me!

My second baby shower is this weekend, so that should be fun! This one is going to be mostly family and family friends. Also, in a couple more weeks there's another shower planned with Lauren, Kristin and then some Lubbock friends! Since I won't be able to go all the way out there, they've been planning on us all meeting up in Abilene, so I'm pretty excited about that one too!

One more thing, this is completely off topic, but woo hoo, 29 days until Red Raider Football starts again!!! I know I probably won't make it to any games this season, but you better believe Baby is going to learn early that Texas Tech is her team! She'll be out there cheering with the best of them soon enough!